Dear Friend, 
Lately I've spiraled into a negative hole,
But when I'm with you, 
You bring a positive aura into my world, 
I wish I were more like you, 
Young, positive, wild and free, 
I used to be like you, 
turning negativity into productivity, 
But it was all a phase, A mask, 
A personality I could never fully be, 
Because once I loose control, I'm triggered,
I've become a monster, Despising myself and others, 
Therefore, I'm compelled to write, 
Just pour out my deepest dark emotions, 
I hope I can make amends with everyone I hurt, 
and everyone who's hurt me, 
Why can't I be more grateful? 
Why am I living in the past or fearing the future? 
I'm consumed with these thoughts every waking hour, 
I have no desire to interact with other people, 
It's time to live in the present, 
release everyone's actions, 
Focus on what I can control, 
Dear Friend, I wish you can teach me your ways. 
But you, nor no one else, can't help me, 
I have to help myself,
And that starts with Self-Love.