Lately I've spiraled into a negative hole,
But when I'm with you,
You bring a positive aura into my world,
I wish I were more like you,
Young, positive, wild and free,
I used to be like you,
turning negativity into productivity,
But it was all a phase, A mask,
A personality I could never fully be,
Because once I loose control, I'm triggered,
I've become a monster, Despising myself and others,
Therefore, I'm compelled to write,
Just pour out my deepest dark emotions,
I hope I can make amends with everyone I hurt,
and everyone who's hurt me,
Why can't I be more grateful?
Why am I living in the past or fearing the future?
I'm consumed with these thoughts every waking hour,
I have no desire to interact with other people,
It's time to live in the present,
release everyone's actions,
Focus on what I can control,
Dear Friend, I wish you can teach me your ways.
But you, nor no one else, can't help me,
I have to help myself,
And that starts with Self-Love.